With the words that I wrote for the title I think you grasp what I had done last night.

I drunk 1lt beer on a hungry stomach. And I began to text him.
I asked everything.
Are there any hope in the future ?
You dont want “me” do you ?
You just needed a woman not me ?
Give me sometime then I wont bother you again…

Like the aboves lost of messages he only said that i am so sorry.

I said him I couldnot date anyone else.

To sum,
I faced w reality.
I failed again.
I felt that nobody would be able to love me.
I must find a job.
Life is not only love.

There is no regret.
I am glad I asked everything so direct. Took the answers.
Pity that I fooled myself…