I am on the same chair, which I wrote how my feeligs just after the happiest berlin moments on august13.
Now I am frozen.
I was with another guy yesterday night and today’s morning.
He was kind to me. Very kind.
While I was kissing him, I keep on saying that “never begin to feel anything, whatever you are felt by him is just sex” he will be gone as the others…
He is just pretending..
Those moments that I rapidly repeated those aboves, my mood has gone and he realized.
“Just kiss me”.
Now I am going back to Bursa. Istanbul again made me crushed into useless pieces.
Sea. Ferries. Istanbul. Anyhow I love you.