Mix of feelings

It is 4.10 am in the morning. I am awake because I am re-writing my thesis proposal. I am writing this on this hour because I need to go to work. Yes I have found a job. My husband is so happy. My family is so happy. I am utmost happy. First I will earn money….


Today I am calm. A perfect sun but a chill weather lick my soul. I am preparing for spring. I am fighting with my anxiety. About school, about after school about his parents and his family, about my family…. but good weather helps and my dreams help. I was going to AUS in my dream….

Update about my other blog

I have changed the name of my other blog. So the links are not working anymore on the blog posts that I have shared before. I’m regretful that I changed the name but there is no turn back sooo we will embrace the new site. Everyday I will promote my new site to gain traffic because…

For him

I was lost. I lost my motivation, my aim… I was stuck the past. Today was enough. He was enough. He is still enough by the way. Why am I doing this fucking master? I was frustrated of unsuccessful attempts for assignments, homework… Lack of time management! But today I remember , I need to…


Yesterday I cried a lot. I am such an unsuccessful person at the school. I failed on everything… We paid a lot for school and now he is frustrated too… I don’t know what to do. I suggest to quit school , he got furious. I really do not know.. I cried and I sleep..Now…

New Year’s new sun

Welcome 2019! Just bring me patience and dedication… Please maintain my inner peace, my love and my life! I am so grateful for what I have! Thank you


Nowadays I am so chilled so peaceful… Things are smooth. Christmas is on the corner! My boyfriend’s friends are coming for Christmas. He is bringing his girlfriend. So we will be accelerator during their serious leveling up process. So I did iron, dishes and cleaning today. But a holiday mood boosts my mood! Last week…