Mix of feelings

It is 4.10 am in the morning. I am awake because I am re-writing my thesis proposal. I am writing this on this hour because I need to go to work. Yes I have found a job. My husband is so happy. My family is so happy. I am utmost happy. First I will earn money….

Update about my other blog

I have changed the name of my other blog. So the links are not working anymore on the blog posts that I have shared before. I’m regretful that I changed the name but there is no turn back sooo we will embrace the new site. Everyday I will promote my new site to gain traffic because…

Relief

Nowadays I am so chilled so peaceful… Things are smooth. Christmas is on the corner! My boyfriend’s friends are coming for Christmas. He is bringing his girlfriend. So we will be accelerator during their serious leveling up process. So I did iron, dishes and cleaning today. But a holiday mood boosts my mood! Last week…

Wait to write about feelings and future

I have lost my inner-peace. Don’t ask why , I lost. This lost inner-peace leaks in each conversation with my husband. I do not like his family, I do not find him beautiful, I cannot see any chemistry between us. Even writing the sentences above took grand time for me. Because writing about my feelings,…

Notes and questions to myself

This bouquet is beautiful. Isn’t it ? What is beauty ? Who is beautiful ? How come humans cannot be objective on such a measurable matter ? If your face is symmetric and proportional , you are beautiful. I mean informatics said like that. At my university, I attended a master thesis study that proves…

My new blog

Because I am still unemployed, I needed something to make me feel busy and value-generated person. I officially opened my first travel blog ! https://bencegidilir.wordpress.com It is in Turkish BUT I put all the restaurants and cafes I like/love in the cities w their addresses! So, for english speakers you have the best part of…

Street screams

This is a wall writing İ saw in Istanbul. It says “Come but without you” Rumi, Persian poet, says whoever you are, please come. But nobody is Rumi. It is true. I know as the way that he is, definitely will hurt me. But I love and want him. It is better if he comes…