Today

Today I am calm. A perfect sun but a chill weather lick my soul. I am preparing for spring. I am fighting with my anxiety. About school, about after school about his parents and his family, about my family…. but good weather helps and my dreams help. I was going to AUS in my dream….

For him

I was lost. I lost my motivation, my aim… I was stuck the past. Today was enough. He was enough. He is still enough by the way. Why am I doing this fucking master? I was frustrated of unsuccessful attempts for assignments, homework… Lack of time management! But today I remember , I need to…

Cry

Yesterday I cried a lot. I am such an unsuccessful person at the school. I failed on everything… We paid a lot for school and now he is frustrated too… I don’t know what to do. I suggest to quit school , he got furious. I really do not know.. I cried and I sleep..Now…

New Year’s new sun

Welcome 2019! Just bring me patience and dedication… Please maintain my inner peace, my love and my life! I am so grateful for what I have! Thank you

New blog

pinarbegendi.wordpress.com My new address , mainly in Turkish but I will generate more english content:) No worries

Tributes to every piece of mine

Today there was a festival at the Philips De Jongh park in Eindhoven. The theme was Happy Sunday ! And at the stage there were only Tribute groups. Red Hot Chili Peppers Amy Winehouse Queen Led Zeplin I only listened Amy Winehouse band. The band was so successful . The vokal is dressed similar as…

Hot yoga

I am voluntarily working a social gathering space for expat community in Eindhoven, Netherlands. Now they are organizing Hot Yoga sessions for beginners . I would like to begin but I am so bad at any type of sport that requires body movement or tool. In other words each one ahahahha I am a social…