I have lost my inner-peace.
Don’t ask why , I lost.
This lost inner-peace leaks in each conversation with my husband. I do not like his family, I do not find him beautiful, I cannot see any chemistry between us.
Even writing the sentences above took grand time for me.
Because writing about my feelings, future with such edgy thoughts will make them absolute.
Before I write they were assumptions.
Now they turned into confessions…
We discussed, we fought over the thoughts… he mention on divorce.
Is it real ? Yes. We barely one year married and in the first fight, he talked about divorce!
I am extremely , crystal clear about the words I said him. Because I know that they are real , they are my facts. Not any forecast or blackmail.
I am heart broken .
All the pieces of my broken heart is a big messed up puzzle