Tributes to every piece of mine

Today there was a festival at the Philips De Jongh park in Eindhoven.

The theme was Happy Sunday ! And at the stage there were only Tribute groups.

Red Hot Chili Peppers

Amy Winehouse


Led Zeplin

I only listened Amy Winehouse band. The band was so successful . The vokal is dressed similar as Amy. Her voice is strong ! The songs they performed were well picked .

Amy was such a transparent song writer and performer . She was special indeed she still is..

so this tribute was everything that I am looking for this weekend.

I am having major problems with my H’s family. They do not behave equal between their sons and we feel this a lot !

Now I learned that they do not want me in their family from the beginning.

Anyway messed people, ignorant personalities … My H is the only contact with them.

So This week I was depressed and exhausted psychologically ..

This thing – flying chairs was also a great tribute to my childhood , easy days.

Nice chill out day and a really happy sunday at the end !


Goodbye 30

I fulfilled 30 years on earth.

As a human, woman, Middle Eastern, heart broken, hardworking, standing alone for herself, frightened, misunderstood, beloved, loving creature…

I love the journey. Each year it gets harder, so the pleasure I got become more….

I did not feel the years of 20s, I lived every second of my 20s as free and full of experiences as possible .

But now moving towards 30 to 31 made me responsible and mature against others.

And when I experienced everything I want; universe and life gave me unconditional affection but not love. That was I had been looking for.

As I became mature, I became more more beautiful, confident, sexy, charming…

Goodbye 30, I had had waited for you so long, please now leave me with what you had come along with…

me and him

One year ago today


Now one year. 

Last year exactly today I was In his bed and woke up by his tender kiss. 

He Is away. 
He is in Berlin. 
I am not there. 
We do not talk anymore.
We do not see each other. 

2weeks ago when I was in Berlin he saw me.  Did not talk. 

He passed and gone on the streets that we talked and walked and kissed… 

They are far Away on time they are far away on miles. 

Still I have the hope. 
Don’t know why. 

But hope.  Hope to live it again. 
in a different country. 
By a common love filled life. 

Photo is taken by me 2weeks ago on the plane to way berlin


Firenze firenze

My colleague is going to florence for a few days which reminds me my birthday gift this year.

My parents send me some money for my europe trip. I chose italy. My route was milan to florence and como to milan.

I had sent my 4square list but remembering the photos made me hungry for a travel. And here it is for you


image My dream house, sun, car, summer, italy 😦





local market, I bought lovely earring but lost then :((



the symbol of firenze, welcomes you everywhere ! btw my earring were like that 😦



me and ponte veccihio




wine, prosicutto, the best the best

Happy friday whom celebrates


Road trip

Wedding just passed.
We enjoyed a great breakfast

All gossips are made. Definetly, breakfast has some relation with happiness !

After loading happiness for myself, I went to bus station to go back my hometown.

2hours road trip was quite peaceful for me.
Autumn, trees, sea, sunlight, clouds…
I think about future, I daydreamed…

He is still silent…
Probably this time is final of finals..
I look out from my window, I tried to listen my inner voice but my concerns were so complicated that I couldnot find the right one to give the priority…
Love with him ?
Life for myself ?
A job for beginning of my career ??

I looked out window, nature warms and calms me down..

This feeling once upon a time came to me when I was in Liverpool.
Is it a sign ? May be…