For him

I was lost. I lost my motivation, my aim… I was stuck the past. Today was enough. He was enough. He is still enough by the way. Why am I doing this fucking master? I was frustrated of unsuccessful attempts for assignments, homework… Lack of time management! But today I remember , I need to…

Wait to write about feelings and future

I have lost my inner-peace. Don’t ask why , I lost. This lost inner-peace leaks in each conversation with my husband. I do not like his family, I do not find him beautiful, I cannot see any chemistry between us. Even writing the sentences above took grand time for me. Because writing about my feelings,…

Notes and questions to myself

This bouquet is beautiful. Isn’t it ? What is beauty ? Who is beautiful ? How come humans cannot be objective on such a measurable matter ? If your face is symmetric and proportional , you are beautiful. I mean informatics said like that. At my university, I attended a master thesis study that proves…

Jealousy Question

I am a jealous person in general. I can be jealous of a smile, a dinner date, a like on instagram . But this jealousy is not limited with my boyfriend, husband. It could be my mom, my dad, my manager, my neighbour ?! So sometimes I believe this is pathetic and I need a…

My new blog

Because I am still unemployed, I needed something to make me feel busy and value-generated person. I officially opened my first travel blog ! https://bencegidilir.wordpress.com It is in Turkish BUT I put all the restaurants and cafes I like/love in the cities w their addresses! So, for english speakers you have the best part of…

Utrecht day

My best friend from switzerland came to visit me. Spontaneously we went to Utrecht. We fall in love with the city. We had an amazingly tasty breakfast at Teds Utrecht Definitely recommended. We ordered their brunches, a french toast w mimoza and a philly steak sandwich w bloodymary. We loved the food so much next…