self talks

Wait to write about feelings and future

I have lost my inner-peace.

Don’t ask why , I lost.

This lost inner-peace leaks in each conversation with my husband. I do not like his family, I do not find him beautiful, I cannot see any chemistry between us.

Even writing the sentences above took grand time for me.

Because writing about my feelings, future with such edgy thoughts will make them absolute.

Before I write they were assumptions.

Now they turned into confessions…

We discussed, we fought over the thoughts… he mention on divorce.

Is it real ? Yes. We barely one year married and in the first fight, he talked about divorce!

I am extremely , crystal clear about the words I said him. Because I know that they are real , they are my facts. Not any forecast or blackmail.

I am heart broken .

All the pieces of my broken heart is a big messed up puzzle


Athens and Cyprus

Atina ve Kıbrıs’ın öteki tarafı
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Black and White in a city

Today I took many black&white photographs in Eindhoven to join a photography competition.

I realized even the buildings are in a modern shape and new. Black and white European city photography reminds me only war. WWII specifically.

Here are the few of them.

self talks

Notes and questions to myself

This bouquet is beautiful. Isn’t it ?

What is beauty ? Who is beautiful ?

How come humans cannot be objective on such a measurable matter ?

If your face is symmetric and proportional , you are beautiful. I mean informatics said like that. At my university, I attended a master thesis study that proves this thesis.

Anyway, I don’t understand how come people can find beautiful some girls , that I am disgusted. Or vice versa.

By the way I am talking about appearance , physical beauty, facial features.

I declare myself as an objective person, even sometimes I underestimate myself to be objective to eliminate the possibility of bias from any comparison.

Ok now I am talking, there is a girl. I found so artificial. Her plastic surgery on nose and fillers in lips create an artificial face.

At first glance, she looks attractive because on media whatever is served as beautiful she transformed herself into that model. Kardashian/Jenner I mean.

But this artificial beauty hides herself alone. Therefore She is just a replica, a bad one. But everyone finds her beautiful including mine closest ones.

I object this.

I hate her because everyone see her as the one.

And she is really fake. A fake gucci bag on paris streets.

Why no one cannot see this ?

Why beauty is relative , meaningless !



On 27th April, the Netherlands celebrates the king’s birthday with a 1 full day and night party.

27th April is National Holiday so they begin to celebrate from 26th April’s night, as they call köningsnacht.

On the actual birthday, koningsdag , you party whole day and you can also sell on street markets whatever you want.

I will share some pictures, taken by me in Eindhoven.

It was good and I said to myself Dutch people really know how to party

The last photo is from Tv, the king and royal family.



Tallinn is a good option when Weather is nice

Bence Gidilir

Tereeee ! Estonca merhaba demek olan Teree dışında hiçbir şey hatırlamıyorum.

İş amaçlı bu mini mini Avrupa Birliği ülkesine gittim. Euro geçiyor. THY’nin direkt seferleri var Istanbul’dan. Hatta giden az olduğu için ucuz biletler bulunması daha olası.


İş amaçlı gittiğim etkinlik ClimateLaunchpad isimli bir iş fikri yarışmasının finali idi. Hemen yarışmayı da anlatıyorum. Climatelaunchpad, Avrupa Birliği tarafından fonlanan iklim değişikliğine çözüm getirebilecek her iş fikrine kapısı açık bir yarışma. Başvurular alındıktan sonra her ülke özelinde, Climate-KIC ( Avrupa Birliği’nin iklim ile ilgilenen bir yapılanması) dahilinde çalışan eğitimcilerin verdiği 2 günlük bir eğitim ile ulusal finale hazırlanıyorlar. Ulusal finalde seçilen en iyi 3 ekip ise diğer ülkelerin finalistleri ile beraber yarışmak üzere büyük finale gidiyor. Büyük finalde ilk 10’a kalan ekipler Climate KIC’te kuluçka programına dahil olup, iş fikirleri için yatırım alıyorlar. İlk 3 ise ayrıca nakit ödüller alıyor. Yarışma ile ilgilenen veya ilgilenebileceğini düşündüklerinize bu linki gönderebilirsiniz.

Tallin’de muhtemelen 25’in üzerinde ülkenin…

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Green business idea competition

This is an alternative post on the blog .

I am one of the National Leads of Turkey chapter, world’s green business idea competition .

Here below you will see the detail press release.

So we are open for any green business idea to carry them on Grand Finals and tackle to climate change while your business grow.

‘Fixing climate change, one start-up at a time’

Largest Global Green Business Ideas Competition kicks off 2018 edition

Amsterdam, January 29th, 2018 – ClimateLaunchpad is the world’s leading green business ideas competition. It is set up to help aspiring entrepreneurs grow their green ideas into global businesses. The competition is now open for applications. ClimateLaunchpad welcomes innovations in renewable energy, energy efficiency, food and agriculture, water, transportation, industrial technology or any other way to tackle climate change.

Frans Nauta, founder of ClimateLaunchpad: “Climate change is solvable. Not with one cure, we need – and there will be – thousands of big and small cures. That’s why ClimateLaunchpad boosts aspiring green entrepreneurs to global success. We train them and give them international stage. Our mission? Fixing climate change, one start-up at a time.

Founded in 2014, the competition has grown from European to global coverage. Last year countries like Australia, India, Azerbaijan and Kenya joined ClimateLaunchpad and over a 1,000 green ideas were entered. The 2018 edition runs in at least 35 countries across the globe.

Since 2016, Turkey is part of the competition and in its very first year with The Team Sponge won Second Place and Audience Award in Tallinn. In 2017 , Finalist teams participated  the Grand Finale and theme awards in Limassol, Cyprus.

In all participating countries, selected participants start off their rigorous training with a 2-day Boot Camp and six Coaching Sessions to prepare for their National Finals. The top-3 of all competing countries will battle the Global Grand Final in November 2018.

The world’s top-10 best ideas win access to the Climate-KIC’s Accelerator, a programme focused at cleantech commercialization. The overall winner of the Grand Final also receives a cash prize of €10,000, the runner up gets €5,000 and the team that comes in third place wins €2,500.

For 2018, applications are open . On website you can submit your application until 18th June 2018.

2-day Boot Camp will be take place on 30th June-1st Julywith the selected teams. Following up sessions and boot camp will prepare the teams for the National Finals and Grand Finale in November 2018.

For more information about ClimateLaunchpad and application please contact with us on our website or social

Climate Turkey



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About ClimateLaunchpad

ClimateLaunchpad is the world’s largest green business ideas competition. Its mission is to address the negative impacts of climate change by ways of innovation, invention and entrepreneurship. A green future demands thousands of innovations challenging the current business models. The competition supports aspiring and promising cleantech entrepreneurs with training, coaching and networking opportunities. ClimateLaunchpad operates on a global scale, currently in over 35 countries.

ClimateLaunchpad was established in 2014 and is part of the Entrepreneurship offerings of EIT Climate-KIC.

About EIT Climate-KIC

Climate-KIC is one of the Knowledge and Innovation Communities (KICs) established in 2010 by the European Institute of Innovation and Technology (EIT), the EU body that creates sustainable economic growth in Europe, tackling the global challenges of this time.

About the European Institute of Innovation and Technology (EIT)

The EIT is an independent body of the European Union set up in 2008 to spur innovation and entrepreneurship across Europe to overcome some of its greatest challenges. It brings together leading higher education institutions, research labs and companies to form dynamic cross-border partnerships – Knowledge and Innovation Communities, KICs – that develop innovative products and services, start new companies, and train a new generation of entrepreneurs.